No lodestar

In general, I'm feeling better than I ever have.

In the past week, panic is winning. I've let slide the day to day habits I've fought to practice; the ones that steadied me, gave me control over my life.

Today, I was incredibly moody all through the day. Angry, irritable, giggly, serious in quick succession. And I can't figure out what I can do tonight to get my balance - journal, rest, push myself to do errands, eat a salad, take a long bath...

What feels yucky? Messy house, unbalanced account, items undone on the to-do list, lack of sleep, bad diet...

So I'll pick one of these to correct a bit with whatever effort I can think of tonight. And then, if I have the time & energy, I'll pick another one to chisel away at.

I'll feel better with small deeds done.