Lies lies lies lies

I don't mean to lie about quitting smoking. I've been serious each of the approximately 6 times I've vowed to stop. I make public declarations to give me more motivation to follow through, which seems to have no effect whatsoever on the outcome.

The tax increase might. I am finishing off the last carton I can afford to buy. So what happens next? How long will these packs last. Will I become desperate enough to sell plasma, or my body, or my very soul to purchase "one more fucking hit"?

What a stupid habit to start so late in life.

Stpider not to quit NOW.