from inside the fog

there are times my brain seems to have floated away on some sort of cerebral vacation.

i move moment to moment with no real goal, no idea of what to do with myself, not sure what the point of the day is.

i don't know if this is symptom of my mental/emotional illness or a shut-down response to avoid responsibility for myself.

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i'm bored. i need to be in school. i'm understimulated. no wonder my brain vacated the premises.

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youtube doesn't count as mental stimulation.

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the weather is gorgeously autumnal. crisp air, crisp leaves, sharp sunlight. good day to walk along the river, if i can dig up a sweater.